Tuesday, 27 October 2015

One of those days

Today I'm having one of those days... They are few and far between but they still occur, well maybe not days but moments. Moments when I really miss Dean. 

I've had a pretty stressful day at work so maybe it's just a feeling of it would be nice to go home to a cuddle and a nice cup of tea but I do feel a little sad. 

Or maybe it's my sub conscience feeling guilty about looking at dating again - who knows. 

I don't like it when I feel like this. I feel like I'm not in control of my own emotions and we all know how much I like to be in control. 

I think everyone is so used to hearing about me going on holiday or excited about buying a new handbag that they forget what has happened in the past. 

I'll never forget. Not that I'd even want to forget. I (mainly) loved my time with Dean. And everything that I've been through has shaped me into the person I am today. 

Despite my selfishness sometimes, I don't think I'm a bad person. 

So tonight I'll have an evening of feeling a little down and no doubt tomorrow I'll wake up 'happy' again. 

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