Word Porn

I love wasting time on Facebook and Pinterest looking at the quotes. I'm often looking for funny/sarcastic quotes but occasionally I stumble across the serious quotes and think 'Yes that makes sense' or more often than not 'What a load of b*llocks!'.

Come on, let's be serious most of the love quotes are deep and meaningless... sorry I mean meaningful. But sometimes some really do help to put things into perceptive.

Here are some of my 'Top' quotes and what I think of them.

I feel like this was written for me. People who knew me five years ago would agree how different I was then. I don't know whether it's just age that has matured me, or what I've been through but I feel like a completely different person.

Before I was a negative spoilt brat. Yes I know I'm not perfect and maybe I've changed from being a spoilt brat to being a 'posh' twat but I have also changed my heart and how I feel for people.

I was very self centred before (and yes some may still think I am) but I know I care a lot more about people now than sadly I did before.

I do feel like I'm a better person. But I also feel a little broken by what happened. I'm now too stubborn and strong sometimes and that can go against me.

You meet new people each and every day but I've been so blessed to meet some incredible people - often whilst travelling.

I met two lovely girls on my first trip to Costa Rica, and also though we don't speak as often as I'd like, I still think the World of them as they are such good people.

The same with my most recent trip. I met two awesome guys who I feel such at ease with. There are no pretences there - I can be me without giving a damn about whether my hair and make up look good etc.

Travelling has blessed me with the best experiences I've had over the past four years. I've experienced some incredible things and have also been very humbled by the World. 

This is a tough one for me. For quite some time I couldn't fully let go of what happened. I tried to 'push' situations so much. I pretended that I wasn't affected by what had happened, that I was strong and independent but all I was doing was craving attention.

I sometimes have moments of thinking about just being in a relationship, for the sake of it. Just so I know I have someone in my life who wants to care for me and is 'mine (so to speak!). Thankfully those moments are few and far between. If anything, it's gone the opposite direction.

I do not want to settle for just anything or anyone. I know perfection doesn't exist but I do hope I will have that light bulb moment (again) when I realise the person I'm getting to know, is the one that I always want to be around.

I'm still not exactly sure what it is I deserve. I wasn't the greatest wife to Dean, but I did love him with all my heart.

I sometimes think if he saw me out and about 'dating' whether he'd be incredible angry with me? But then I try and take comfort in the last message he sent to me, saying he hope's that I will be 'truly happy'.

I think this speaks for itself. My heart was truly broken before, even now I still know it's not fully healed. In fact, it won't ever be fully healed. But I still hope to find true love again.

The right person will also need to be strong enough to accept what I've been through. Sadly one ex just couldn't get over the fact that I had been fully committed to someone else - that's very sad.

There have been times when I've thought maybe it's not worth the potential pain to be open for love again but then I realise what a sad, lonely life that would be. 

Again this one I've doubted many times!! Sometimes I'm not sure what the difference is between being strong and stubborn?

I was never going to allow someone (Dean) to beat me. I want to live a full life and I think my angry and rage was what got me through the first year or so.

I do like being strong. Not just emotionally but little things like I want to beat the boys at the gym or be independent and change my tyre (although I have run flats so that doesn't quite work). I'm sure you get the picture!

This is my favourite. It gives me hope! If things were handed to you on a silver platter, then it's worth a little less (it's certainly not worthless!).

I have sometimes thought whether we only get 'One True Love' in this life? I know Dean was mine but I do hope and believe there are many other people out there that are right for me.

I just need to decide whether I'm waiting for that famous 'Spark' or it's those that grow on you, that is the right person...